i used to hate when you talked to other girls
you know that hasn't really changed
no, no that hasn't really changed
it's kind of always stayed the same
although i haven't seen you in like three whole months
you know, that's kind of really strange
it's kind of really, really strange
it makes me feel a bit deranged

and these pearl inlays in my ukelele aren't doing so well
in telling you the batshit crazy thoughts i want to tell
the first and last things on my mind each day won't cease to be you
and there's not way of telling if that's how you're feeling too

sometimes i realize just how bad i feel
and that it feels like it's been years
it feels like i've been sad for years
my face is all dried up from all these tears
but other times i feel like i could just do so much better
i could just find someone new
someone who looks kind of like you
and does all of the stupid shit that you used to do

there's no easy way to tell myself that things are done
the way we fell apart was not a great situation
maybe if i could get some closure then i would feel okay
and all my stupid fucking feelings would just up and go away

sometimes i hate myself for ever giving up hope on you
i never meant to say some of the things that i said but neither did you
i guess sometimes we all say things we never wanted to
but when you said "drunk words were sober thoughts" i really hated you

so much

i hated you so much